I want to be a part of these big names too. I'd love to see my strengths unfold to action. I'd love to be actually being able to buy something and say 'I bought it'. I'd love to say 'I'm working in ----------- as a ------------ expert'. I'd love to see something actually being born out of my creativity. I'd loved to be called as an earning member of my family and be a part of supporting my selfless family. I'd be proud to put my own tithe offering in the church....
I'll stop here and get captain imagination to come back to planet earth otherwise he'll get you to think that I'm starting to get crazy.
God led me to make a commitment to Him when I was 15 years old and I drew my own path to fulfill that commitment. I worked on a strategy that seemed logical to me to accomplish the vision that God had in mind. I asked God to implement my plans so that I could effectively execute His vision. No prize for guessing!!!....I failed miserably. Maybe not 'miserable' in the way the world looks, but it crushed my spirit. I lost the passion that I had towards my commitment, and I started concentrating only on my 'net worth'.
But for God, your net-worth means nothing; its your 'self-worth' that matters because the price He paid for that was the death of His Son. For everything else there's 'MASTER' card. No interest costs, No annual charges, No hidden costs, No operating costs!!! Totally funded by the 'Treasury of the Almighty King'. So God began meticulously working on my self-worth, God used my crushed spirit to teach me about Him and about me. He showed me my life. He was refining me like a silversmith would refine silver, with utmost care, because He knew that if He left the silver in the flames for a little longer, it would be destroyed. God's not finished yet.. but a part of His work stands complete; and I can see some of the sparkle.
Now when I stand in the threshold of yet another transition, suddenly my past haunts me. Though I'd learnt a lot of things that I'd never have learnt otherwise, the experience of being divorced from your dreams is rather painful. I love God with all my heart and I don't want one thing to happen from my life that He does not approve of. He owns my life not once but twice; once when He created it and the second time was when He bought it by the blood of His Son. For a moment, I forgot that it was this painful experience that got me to enjoy a different level of relationship with God. My past took over and fear gripped me.
While I was brooding over this, and honestly opened up my heart to God, He spoke to me very clearly through a church sermon, "Do not consider the things of the past.. Behold I make all things new." The voice of God spoke to my heart.
Usually when there is a promise the best strategy to see it work in your life is this.. "Obey the command preceding it and wait for the promise to unfold". I've been obedient and now I'm waiting for God to open new paths so that I can fullfill my commitment and accomplish His vision. No heartbreaks this time!! because now its His plan and therefore His providence. Is this going to stop me from dreaming? Nope!! not all..... I have the freedom to dream provided I've given God the eraser and the pencil. Moreover, I can never have a dream that is better than God's plan.
Maybe there's something in your life too that's coming back and discouraging you. Those were the flames God used to make you shine. The devil's scheme is to make the memory of those flames to shame you and suck your energy and faith so that you won't move forward. Get back.. God has unimaginably great things in store for His shining silver.
For all of you out there getting ready for a head start in your career...All the Best!! God be with you!
Isaiah 43:18-19
Do not [earnestly] remember the former things; neither consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing…
Malachi 3:3
He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver; He will purify the sons of Levi, and purge them as gold and silver, that they may offer to the LORD, An offering in righteousness.
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